[ கவிதை ] கடற்கரையில் நாம்..

மல்லாந்து விரிந்திருக்கும் 
வெண் மணற்பரப்பின்
;உலர்ந்த மேனியில் 
அமிழ்ந்து எழும் 
நம் பாதங்கள் 
காதலின் சுவடுகளை 
கடற்கரையில் பதிவிடுகின்றன 

சீறிவரும் கடலின் 
தேகம் தொட்டு வரும் 
சில்லென்ற காற்று 
நம்மை தழுவி செல்ல 
இறுக்கிப் பிடித்துக் கொள்கிறோம் 
நம் விரல்கள் நழுவிப் பிரியாதபடி

வெளிச்சத்தை இரவு 
விழுங்க தொடங்கியிருக்க 
உன் புன்னகைகளை 
வெட்கம் முழுவதுமாக விழுங்கியிருக்கிறது 

வானம் தன்னை 
அலங்கரிக்க தயாராகிறது 
நானுன் கூந்தலை 
மலர்களால் அலங்கரிக்கிறேன் 
உன் வெட்கத்தில் 
நனைந்தெழும் அம்மலர்களின் வாசனை 
போதையைத் தருகிறது

இவ்வளவு 
கிறக்கத்தை ஏற்படுத்தக் கூடியதா 
இந்த காதல்..
நம் காதல் !

அன்பே !
இதே கடற்கரைக்கு
நாளையும் நாம் வருவோம்..
காதலின் மணம் பரப்புவோம்..
நாம் வந்து கொண்டே இருப்போம் 
கடலின் மேனி 
வெட்கத்தில் சிவக்கும் வரை !!

பால் ஆரோக்கியம்.
26-ஜூலை-2014.

[ கவிதை ] பிறந்த நாள் வாழ்த்துக்கள், என் அன்பே!

அவனெழுதிய எழுத்துக்களுக்கு 

நாம் உயிர் கொடுத்த அத்தருணம் 

எதுவென்று அறிய விரும்பி

நீயாகிய நான் 

பின்னோக்கி நடக்க

நானாகிய நீ 

என் மீது இடிக்க 

தேடல் மறந்து 

கூடலில் நாம் திளைக்க 

மீண்டும் உயிர் கொடுக்கிறோம் 

அவனெழுதிய 

மற்ற சில எழுத்துக்களுக்கு..

என்அன்பே..

இரும்புருக்கும் தீ ஜூவாலையாய்

நெஞ்சுக்குள் பரவும் 

உன் காதலில் 

உருகி வழியும் என்னிதயத்தில் 

உன் பெயர் 

உன் உருவம் 

உன் வாசனை..

கரம் பிடித்து 

என்னுடன் வா

என்னுயிரே !

மனிதர் இல்லாததொரு உலகத்திற்கு

நானுன்னை அழைத்து செல்கிறேன்..

காலம் வெல்லும் 

காதல் கதையொன்றை 

நாமங்கே எழுதுவோம்..

நம் காதல் பிரசவிக்கும் 

நமதன்பு செல்வங்கள் 

அவ்வுலகை ஆளட்டும்..

அங்கே

நம் காதல் 

அதன் சுவடுகள் 

மட்டுமே நிறைந்து கிடக்கட்டும்..

தேகத்தின் 

நுண்ணிய துளைகளில் நுழைந்து 

உதிரத்தில் கலந்து 

இதயத்தை நனைத்து 

மனதிற்குள் படர்ந்து 

மேகங்களுடன் சிநேகிக்கும் வாய்ப்பளித்த

என் காதலே,

இந்த நாள் 

இனிதாக அமையட்டும் !!

இந்த வருடம் 

மகிழ்வில் பொங்கட்டும் !!

உனதிந்த வாழ்வு 

இணையற்ற இன்பத்தில் திளைக்கட்டும் !!!

பிறந்த நாள் வாழ்த்துக்கள்..!!!

பால் ஆரோக்கியம்.

19-ஜூலை-2014.

[ கவிதை ] சதுரங்க வேட்டை

சதுரங்கத்தில் 
சிங்கத்தை வேட்டையாட விரும்பி 
முன்னேறும் ஒருவனது 
துடிப்பு பற்றி 
என்ன நினைக்கிறீர்கள்..?

அவனுக்கான போர்க்களம் அதுவல்ல 
என்பதை 
சீற்றத்தில் இருக்கும் 
அவனது செவிகளில் 
கிசுகிசுக்கும் வழி எதென்று 
எப்படி அறிவீர்கள்..?

நிழலுடன் போராடுபவனுக்கும் 
அவனுக்கும் 
இருக்கும் ஒற்றுமைகளாக 
எதை நீங்கள் கருதுகிறீர்கள்..?

அவனது துடிப்பின் 
மீதான கருணையின் நிமித்தம் 
தோன்றியிருக்கிறதா உங்களுக்கு 
விதிமுறை மீறி 
சதுரங்கத்தின் உள்ளே 
சிங்கத்தை இழுத்து வந்து நிறுத்த..?

பால் ஆரோக்கியம்.
18-ஜூலை-2014.

[ கவிதை ] பாச மலர்களே!

அன்பின் மலர்களே 
அன்பற்ற பொழுதுகளில் 
அணுகப்படாதது குறித்து 
என்றேனும் வருந்தியிருக்கிறீர்களா..?

அல்லது 
ஓய்வின் மடியில் 
சாய்ந்துப் படுத்து 
அமைதிக் கொண்டீர்களா..?

மாறும் மனிதரின் 
மனநிலைக் குறித்து 
மனதிற்குள் சிரித்திருக்கிறீர்களா..?

அல்லது 
மாற்றம் என்பது 
இயற்கையின் நியதியென்று
சமரசம் கொண்டீர்களா..?

அன்பின் மலர்களே 
என்றேனும் நீங்கள் 
சப்தமாய் பிராத்தித்திருக்கிறீர்களா
அறுத்து புதைத்திட்ட அன்பைத் 
தோண்டிப் பறித்து 
ஒட்ட வைக்கும் ஆற்றல் வேண்டி..?

பால் ஆரோக்கியம்.
17-ஜூலை-2014.

Weird..

When I started communicating about one of the good news to my close circles, the responses were mixed. I really wanted to write down some of them for I might forget them otherwise. But then, I thought I better forget them -- why find a way to keep something that isn't pleasant in nature.

I do know that people are different. Everyone is a unique in their own kind. But I thought that there are at least some basic common characters within my close circle. Otherwise why would someone feel the closeness. But then, when some people even break such belief of yours, how could you respond ? More than provoking anguish, they make me feel weird. In this world of uncertainty, some people are suffering from severe 'what's-there-for-me' disorder.

I really wanted to write a post about the responses in their abstract form but then I thought I might end up violating their privacy -- not everyone wants publicity, do they ?

Paul Arockiam.
17-July-2014.

Controlling the uncontrollable..

"I didn't come this far to take a NO", is what most people think. Nobody does, do they ? Such thinking is what brings them the determination that they themselves have never seen. Most of the time the fundamental problem with human being is the rejection itself rather than who rejects. The ego, even though some say they don't give a shit, does in deed play you. It is so cunning that it makes you end up fighting a battle that doesn't even exist or lost already.

The situation is more difficult to handle if the person is so much used to receiving nothing but YES all the time. Such people, over a period of time, gifted with cat's eyes. They think that gift is an award while it is in fact a curse. The problem with cat, as they say, is that it thinks the world is dark when it closes it's eyes. The fact is difficult to be explained to cat since the fact actually sits on the illusion. It can only be realized by the cat if it chooses to look at the world beyond it's closed eyelids.

Doctor, a real doctor, says, "don't try to control the uncontrollable". It is important to understand what is controllable and what is uncontrollable. Trying to control the uncontrollable is like chasing your own shadow to hug closer. At the most, you will finally end up putting the lights out and place yourself into darkness.

So you see, you can't say that you didn't walk that far to take a NO. Walking a farther distance is your choice and in control of you. However, what is being granted is not in your control. The sooner you realize, the sooner you can take different path(s) as needed.

Paul Arockiam.
16-July-2014.

Biggest battles..

The biggest battles fought by the individuals never made themselves to the history. They were closed behind the doors, hided under the blanket and let to dry on the pillows. The biggest battles have always been the ones that are within even though they were kicked off by the ones who just found their way out.

Most of the times, advises never have effect on people. When they get themselves convinced of the battle they were fighting within, found a way to make peace with themselves or decided to give up on the enemy they were fighting with, anything you tell them could be treated as advise and can be given the status of having effect.

You see, counselling and advises changing life are myths. It is the decision to listen to them has to be marked as the point of turning. One of my friends used to say, "do you know what is your problem..? you know a lot !!". When those statements hit me hard, I realized that ignorance is indeed a bliss. Ignorance helps to recover faster, because your bowl is empty and there is always someone or something to fill it with.

When I was suffering from deepest form of depression, I know inside that it wasn't that I couldn't come out of it. It was just that I didn't want to. When you realize such fact, there is nothing in this world that can cure you but you.

Paul Arockiam.
15-July-2014.

Unexplained things can only be untitled..

I don't know the best way to deal with the haunting memories. I still struggle with them like many others. One of my friends used to say, "life is very simple, it is we -- people -- who make it complicated". While he may be right, nobody wants to make their life complicated. It just happens that way like so many things that can't be explained.

People say that you always have a choice. The paths you have walked are simply because of the choices you have made along the way. Yes, in deed we do have choices all the time. Only thing is, we don't get to choose them most of the time. We were forced to choose by different means, which we do not have control over. Idealists might say that you have the control over your choices, but if one can live an ideal life why all these sufferings and pains ?

An emotional weakness is one of the natures of humanity. Being practical is fine. You can only be so much practical in your life. Being "only" practical makes a person robot, not human. That is my opinion and it  has always been. Some people think that being practical is being wise. I say that it is just an illusion. The more you get closer, the more it disappears. You can never catch it. Such thinking is meant to be seen and enjoyed from distance like any other fantasy stuff.

I have seen many people in my life with different weaknesses at varying scale. Everybody has some. Even those who think they always take practical decisions do have weaknesses like pride, status, fame, ego etc including "being practical" being one among them. Like any other weakness, they could also be easily hurt and taken advantage of if someone wants to. When one can't be without any weakness, I choose to have the one that is closer to humanity.

Paul Arockiam.
15-July-2014.

Holding up..

It is so much difficult to hold it a secret, especially the one that you are longing for to let go public. When the reasons and seasons aren't adding up, you are given no choice but to hold it up a little longer. But then you are scared of the complaints, so you let some know about it and keep some in the dark. Then the scary feeling turns into guilt that you are being partial, so you start trying to figure out a way to make the reasons and seasons set straight.

One thing I have noticed with people is their personal take on something, as how it should supposed to have happened rather than the happening itself, gets so aggregated that they forget the happening and their dutiful response to the same. They simply react. They couldn't help themselves but to react. While I understand the same, I do wait for their response sooner or later. But sometimes you will just be disappointed. You see, people are people. Greatness could be there within them, but it always overpowered by their ego.

As a matter of fact, I sometime afraid of the response itself, forget the reaction. Some people don't really know how to respond. It could be because they simply don't understand the essence of life or their way of seeing the life simply don't overlap with yours. Sometimes it is so surprising how we have become friends with such a disastrous difference being between us. Thinking deeply, the only answer I could come up with is that may be I respect(ed) them the way they are (were). But continuing the same seems difficult when some unacceptable differences pop up.

I thought of writing some more in this post. Lets keep it simple for the very reason that reasons and seasons haven't gotten add up yet.

Paul Arockiam.
15-July-2014.

Courageous move..

A bold move is always a difficult task to do. I use the word 'bold' because you could mostly predict the responses and reactions of the step you are going to take. The move could be anything, a open talk, expression of heart, talking about the truth, standing up for your right, putting a full-stop to your sacrifices, fixing your emotional weaknesses etc etc. It could be anything.

The fact about a courageous move is that it will indeed nurture your life but likely to elicit negative and bitter reactions from those who could have otherwise have had a comfortable living. You tend to take such move when you are pushed to the edge or invariably by chance you end up reaching the edge.

What would be the most surprising thing is that the people, who complain of you having changed or deviating from your so-called original nature, are the ones who were the reason for such change. Most of the times, I wonder whether they are really ignorant about such fact or pretend to be so.

Every now and then, if you notice carefully, you were compelled to take a courageous move. What I always think is that the sooner you take, the better.

Paul Arockiam.
13-July-2014.

Why less writing in Tamil these days..?

I'm sensing that some of my friends might be really disappointed about the fact that I don't write much in Tamil these days. While that wasn't intentional, as everyone else, I have some reasons too. It is, indeed, true that I not only feel very comfortable writing in Tamil but also able to express myself to it's fullest details. What else language could help you express your heart if not mother tongue..?

However, it does take more time to write posts when written in Tamil, because of the complicated tooling support as well as the added responsibility of using the appropriate and more elegant words hops in. Besides, having narrowed down the friends list, not many in my list are known to Tamil. Last but not the least, for an unknown reason (honestly unknown), thought flow seems to be much more faster if I plan to write in English.

I do want to write more in Tamil, but timing seems to be less supportive. Lets see how it is going forward.

PS: I could have written at least this post in Tamil, I know.

Paul Arockiam.
11-July-2014.

The panic button..

If the panic button is pressed when you are not prepared at all, what would be your reaction ? Very scary, isn't it ??

It was, in deed. But then, if you take a deep breath and try to think clearly, you could realize that getting scared isn't going to do any good. All you need to come up with is a strategy to play with the life's sudden game of challenge without even worrying or wasting time on understanding the rules. You just have to learn the rules along the way. No time to waste. No second to sit or hide.

Life never puts an impossibly achievable challenges in front of you. As long as you are alive, you can handle the situation in a way or other. All you need to do is to think how to handle.

A blossoming future is never guaranteed without struggles. The struggles in life always are the signs of a blossoming future ! At least, that is what I believe in.

Paul Arockiam.
10-July-2014.  

Reactions and responses of human being

People's reaction and response are sometimes so very confusing. It even confuses to a level where I finally end up questioning their well-wishing nature, which otherwise I had confidence that they did exist. Looking at all these things makes me realize the answer to question of why people be secret about their life.

I think people's personal take on certain things are so compulsive that they couldn't even pretend to be gentle and courteous. Well, you are left with no choice but to face the reality at the end. Reality in the sense, how people react or respond to changes in your life.

When things happen such ways, you have options like worry, angry, depressed, determined etc etc. I choose the option 'ignore' and try to keep my mood stable.

Paul Arockiam.
09-July-2014.

Songs of Solomon - A book in Old Testament

It was by chance I happen to notice the book "Songs of Solomon" in the Old Testament of the Holy Bible. It is surprising to see that the Holy Bible not only contains the words of Lord but also talks about the love life of Jerusalem and Palestinian people. While the preface of the book says that the interpretation of the songs in the book vary based on people's perception, it also rightly points out that the songs are clearly talking about the Love life of the Jerusalem people and not about Lord.

The songs are filled with love. Very poetic in nature. Most of the songs are like a woman talking to his lover, a man talking to his lady love and people in general talking about the love life of their generation.

Even though some may say that the songs are nothing but the expression of love between people of Jerusalem and Lord, I, as many others, disagree with that perception. The Songs of Solomon is nothing but a literature anthology like Kuruntokai and many other classical Tamil poetic literature anthology. It need not be a surprise to see such book in the Holy Bible for the very reason that love is nothing but a holy feeling, present of nature and a gift from God. Bible accepts the same.

Paul Arockiam.
02-July-2014.