I want to record this moment, the one just passed. So that I remember forever how embarrassed I'm, how stupid I feel and how dump i should be to bang my head against the wall willingly. This is what happens when you start ignoring what life tries to teach you. This is what happens when you deny the inevitable. This is what happens when you are too adamant to see the reality.
"Oki, doc ! I get it.. you keep saying it and i kept ignoring it, so what..? just get lost!!". The doctor doesn't leave. He has never left before and he never will. But I know at least it will shut him down for a while, the time I need alone to drink the pain and pee it before it suffers my soul much.
I want to remember this moment, the one that just passed right now, so that I don't end up being embarrassed, make myself a stupid and more importantly stay away from hurt.
Paul Arockiam.
11-Apr-2014.
Approx., 22:20
"Oki, doc ! I get it.. you keep saying it and i kept ignoring it, so what..? just get lost!!". The doctor doesn't leave. He has never left before and he never will. But I know at least it will shut him down for a while, the time I need alone to drink the pain and pee it before it suffers my soul much.
I want to remember this moment, the one that just passed right now, so that I don't end up being embarrassed, make myself a stupid and more importantly stay away from hurt.
Paul Arockiam.
11-Apr-2014.
Approx., 22:20
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